An introduction

Sometimes I'm convinced I have some sort of disorder. I definitely can be a tad bit obsessive, but when I have something on my mind it's as if the words are physically taking up too much space in my brain and the only way to relieve some of the pressure is to say them or write them to get them out of my head. I guess this is my attempt to relieve my family from having to hear every theory I come up with. I have had my share of hardships at my age, though I'm fully aware I have it much much better than many.

I guess to start (because this will be the basis of most of my theories in life) I think the entire point of life is to be happy. It is the single thing you have any control over in life. I don't mean that you should do whatever will instantly gratify you, but whichever decision will ultimately lead to a happier life is the one I would personally go with. This goes along with another theory of mine. When I have a tough decision to make, I try to determine which decision could I possible regret more. For example-on a very simple level, wearing a seat belt. I will never regret wearing one, but if I survived the worst case of not I would obviously regret that more. This has helped me with a lot of decisions, at the very least it helps me to figure out which 2 worst case scenarios I'm facing. These are the two theories that nearly everything else I come up with is based on.

I'm currently a bit lost in life (as evidenced by needing this outlet). I recently got out of a long term relationship, I've got major medical issues to contend with (I had a stroke last year), and I'm trying to figure out where exactly I'd like my life to go. It's definitely a bit of a beginning life crisis, and I'm hoping that if I spill enough on here eventually I'll stumble across that one thought that will help me figure myself out. More to come...